[It's difficult to say what he would have done if Hinata hadn't reacted. In his mind's eye he can see those that aren't with them in the city anymore. He turns to Hinata, covering his fists as his voice drops low.]
We're right here. No one is going anywhere.
[His chest aches. The idea of losing everything hangs suspended in his mind. It would be his luck to have it all and lose it. Could he survive that? Of course he could. He knows it but he doesn't want to. For a second it's there, the shadow of his darker self with coils of smoke and darkness but he draws back, pulling it back inside.
A moment passes before he says in as soft a voice as he can manage yet still be heard.] ...it's not about control. That's not what balance is.
[He lets go of one of Hinata's fist and picks the petal back up. He stares into the starry sky within the memory and feels it carry his mind somewhere else. Back to the cool night where the breeze pulled at his hair. His master, then a teacher had pointed to the heavens after he'd said something wrong as usual.]
Mmm, it's complicated. I wasn't sure how to put it into words but I'll try. ...Just like the starry sky here we all have hundreds of components that make up the self. In this world our lives give off energy...magic. It makes us more aware of ourselves as individuals even the parts of us normally hidden from our own eyes.
[Mu's voice is a soothing and familiar comfort from hours of learning to tame his emotions and bring the energy they give off under his will. So he couldn't hurt anyone. He'll forever be grateful that if he had lost it, Aries Mu would have stopped him. This world is just too precious to him to lose.]
No one likes what they see in the mirror. Our fear pushes us to impose control over it and to subjugate what we see. It will feel like victory but...hahaha, we already know what happens if someone pushes just the right way! You have to let yourself feel everything without being lost to it. Finding balance is overcoming the idea that some of what we feel is bad. There's no good or evil, there's just you.
When you grasp the magic given off by your own body you're only grasping your own life. Like someone drawing a sword except that's the ultimate expression of who you are shaped by your hand. I know, it gets complicated when you think like that.
[He sets the petal back on Nanami's leg and rests his hands on his lap. After earlier when he raged at the rock and the earth, he can still feel how his magic had snapped around him like lightning.]
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Date: 2016-09-22 12:58 am (UTC)We're right here. No one is going anywhere.
[His chest aches. The idea of losing everything hangs suspended in his mind. It would be his luck to have it all and lose it. Could he survive that? Of course he could. He knows it but he doesn't want to. For a second it's there, the shadow of his darker self with coils of smoke and darkness but he draws back, pulling it back inside.
A moment passes before he says in as soft a voice as he can manage yet still be heard.] ...it's not about control. That's not what balance is.
[He lets go of one of Hinata's fist and picks the petal back up. He stares into the starry sky within the memory and feels it carry his mind somewhere else. Back to the cool night where the breeze pulled at his hair. His master, then a teacher had pointed to the heavens after he'd said something wrong as usual.]
Mmm, it's complicated. I wasn't sure how to put it into words but I'll try. ...Just like the starry sky here we all have hundreds of components that make up the self. In this world our lives give off energy...magic. It makes us more aware of ourselves as individuals even the parts of us normally hidden from our own eyes.
[Mu's voice is a soothing and familiar comfort from hours of learning to tame his emotions and bring the energy they give off under his will. So he couldn't hurt anyone. He'll forever be grateful that if he had lost it, Aries Mu would have stopped him. This world is just too precious to him to lose.]
No one likes what they see in the mirror. Our fear pushes us to impose control over it and to subjugate what we see. It will feel like victory but...hahaha, we already know what happens if someone pushes just the right way! You have to let yourself feel everything without being lost to it. Finding balance is overcoming the idea that some of what we feel is bad. There's no good or evil, there's just you.
When you grasp the magic given off by your own body you're only grasping your own life. Like someone drawing a sword except that's the ultimate expression of who you are shaped by your hand. I know, it gets complicated when you think like that.
[He sets the petal back on Nanami's leg and rests his hands on his lap. After earlier when he raged at the rock and the earth, he can still feel how his magic had snapped around him like lightning.]
How you win, that's different for everyone.