[ The hug is tight and warm. It's a reminder of how real she is and how close she is. But at the same time -- his eyes flicker from red to green and back again. It's comfortable, and yet, at the same time it hurts. The pain comes from lingering memories and feelings from the past, all dug up and forced open to the surface. But he mentally shakes it off.
Komaeda knows what he feels. He's spoken about it. He knows full well that he needs to tell her, too. But the fear seeps into his heart and almost manifests as cracks, but he stops himself. He can't do this right now.
Not in front of her. ]
... [ He wants to retort in regards to the whole "hard to do by yourself" in regards to feeling things, but he immediately speaks up, quiet, solemn: ] You just need to get into your own head more, Nanami.
[ Ah. His first mistake. He immediately regrets it, but doesn't take it back. While internally, he knows what's going on in his head, he doesn't show it at all externally. His poker face is perfect. He knows that. And it helps that he can control his emotional reactions now. Otherwise they would see the darkness manifest once again.
And while it's so comfortable to be snuggled up like this, it's a grave reminder of the things from the past.
His memories.
Memories only he has. Neither of them have it. Neither of them have seen it. It's his, and his alone. He can still hear the words echo in his head, completely unaware that the voices that speak in his memories is also being projected to the two of them.
"Yeah... I'm done for. I won't... be able to help you. I'm... sorry."
"Even in your situation, you would still try to protect someone?"
"Because I love... everyone. No... I don't want to die! I... I still have things I want to do. I wanted... to stay classmates with everyone! One... one more time... I wanted... to play video games... with you, Hinata-kun." ]
At least you're learning, though. [ Even with those thoughts and memories, painful as they are, he manages to smile through them. He's keeping his emotions locked up inside of him, wearing a mask that's glued onto his face, unaware that they might have heard his memory. Perhaps even saw it, too. ] That's good.
major dr3 spoilers holy shit baloney who let me rp
Komaeda knows what he feels. He's spoken about it. He knows full well that he needs to tell her, too. But the fear seeps into his heart and almost manifests as cracks, but he stops himself. He can't do this right now.
Not in front of her. ]
... [ He wants to retort in regards to the whole "hard to do by yourself" in regards to feeling things, but he immediately speaks up, quiet, solemn: ] You just need to get into your own head more, Nanami.
[ Ah. His first mistake. He immediately regrets it, but doesn't take it back. While internally, he knows what's going on in his head, he doesn't show it at all externally. His poker face is perfect. He knows that. And it helps that he can control his emotional reactions now. Otherwise they would see the darkness manifest once again.
And while it's so comfortable to be snuggled up like this, it's a grave reminder of the things from the past.
His memories.
Memories only he has. Neither of them have it. Neither of them have seen it. It's his, and his alone. He can still hear the words echo in his head, completely unaware that the voices that speak in his memories is also being projected to the two of them.
"Yeah... I'm done for. I won't... be able to help you. I'm... sorry."
"Even in your situation, you would still try to protect someone?"
"Because I love... everyone. No... I don't want to die! I... I still have things I want to do. I wanted... to stay classmates with everyone! One... one more time... I wanted... to play video games... with you, Hinata-kun." ]
At least you're learning, though. [ Even with those thoughts and memories, painful as they are, he manages to smile through them. He's keeping his emotions locked up inside of him, wearing a mask that's glued onto his face, unaware that they might have heard his memory. Perhaps even saw it, too. ] That's good.